I kinda wish I had a job for when I was home for these 2 months, but that’s exactly the problem. I’m only here for like a month and a half and so no one is gonna wanna hire someone for that short of a period. I don’t think I could handle going back to the puppy store. So much has changed since I left. I just wish I had something to occupy my day and have some money flowing in. I guess the relaxation before I have to go back to class will be nice though. I just want some fucking sunshine though!

I feel like I’ve been feeling weird lately. I’ll be fine during the day and when I’m busy and stuff but it’s those little moments where I’m alone or trying to fall asleep that the weirdness comes on. I’m so stoked to go to California for spring break but part of me wishes I was going home because I really miss my friends and would like to see them because they always remind me of who I am when I’m with them. I wish I could just go over to Logan’s right now and chill with everyone and smoke a bowl and give them a giant hug. I’d really like to see my mom too.

What a chill ass fucking tuesday. I skipped both my classes today because it was so gorgeous outside. It was 70 all day and shorts felt sooo nice. Smoked and drank captain all day. Live is soooo good.

I really miss being able to just sit in my room and listen to music out loud and sing out loud. I love my roommate to death but she always has the fucking tv on 24/7 so I have to listen to music with headphones. It’s not that big of a deal just sometimes I wish I could play it loud and proud. Next year will be better when I have my own room.

I just want it to be wednesday so I can be done with all my fucking tests and shit. I have two tomorrow and I’m starting to get stressed out tonight. I’m not really worried about cognitive psychology because that shit is easy to memorize and I’ve been making notecards all week. But fuck my gender class. Everything we are learning is pretty much common sense and so I didn’t read because I didn’t think I really had to. And not that my exam is tomorrow I wish I had read because it would have made this whole thing easier. And it’s online which is weird and I’m not used to that. Also I have no idea how my sociology exam is gonna go on tuesday. I haven’t even started studying for that bitch. All I really need to do is make a notecard though. Oh college.

chillin so hard right now

purple draaank

I was sad that I didn’t get to donate blood today because I got a tattoo 4 months ago. I really wanted to because it’s the least I can do to help others who really need it. It’s really no big deal at all. And I won’t be able to donate until a year passed my tattoo, which also sucks. Oh well I guess I’ll have to find some other way to do my part.

I feel like I always get in the position where my friends end up having to talk to a guy about me a lot. It makes me feel bad that they always have to deal with that but at the same time it’s not really my fault and there’s nothing I can do about it being brought up. I mean I’m sure they don’t care that much but I mean I’m sure I’d get sick of hearing about it after a little bit. Every time I think it’s over and done with it, it keeps resurfacing. Oh well at least it’s not drama. 

I reaaaally want a new tattoo

I can’t wait until Terence shows me what he’s drawn up for me. I have to start saving for this next one because it’s going to be big and colorful and fucking awesome.